Warning: This post is pretty fucking ugly. Matter of fact, it may seem down right offensive to overly-sensitive pussies and egotistical dipshits, but hey, I’ve got some pretty thick skin (covered by tattoos) and I’ve always been known to be a “loose cannon” at times. However, after our last live event in New York City, I briefly touched on this point in the after-hours networking and was asked to share it to the forum. Well, either I got balls the size of coconuts or I truly don’t give shit about anyone’s opinion, here comes forth a tale that not only has knocked me down more than once, it’s also been the downfall of many others in our Online Marketing Industry.
Many have suffered this fatal flaw in their Entreprenurial years and no matter what you will read below, many more will also either endure it or have it knock them out of business for good. Here’s my very own personal story. Take it how you want it. Hate me or love me, if I help just one person avoid this windmill of shit I brought onto myself, then I consider this post – mission accomplished.
As I’ve said before, I am not big on opinions. Everyone has one. I just sincerely, really do not give a fuck about many of them. Most people talk out their ass and the ones that don’t are them insecure pussies who can’t own up to anything publicly. Since I’ve been both, it’s very easy for me to express what I’m about to say. Since I am neither now, it just makes it that much easier.
It doesn’t matter who you are, everyone wants to experience more of life’s material fantasies and pleasures. If you say you don’t, re-read the paragraph above. Then sit down and be open-minded. Don’t worry it doesn’t show weakness to admit we all have urges to achieve extreme wealth. There’s evidence of it around the world. Why do you read this blog? Why are you a part of our private forums? Why are you an affiliate of Revived Media? Why are you using our mobile tracker at iMobiTrax?
TO MAKE MORE MOTHERFUCKING MOOOONEEEEYYYY. No, despite what you tell yourself, you either got into this business or will get into this business to make more money. Period.
There’s nothing wrong with this. The important part here is to not become a “slave to money.”
I did. It was fucking terrible. Nearly killed me. Literally. Worst fucking imprisonment I’ve ever experienced. I’ve experienced a few imprisonments in my life. Addiction (to more than just one drug). Jail – more than once also. Being controlled – see this post to get refreshed.
You know what the worst part about this insane craving for money that is literally a “global epidemic?” – It actually results in MILLIONS of people living a miserable life. Far from success. Sad.
As people we lust. We covet. We envy. We get jealous. We get egotistical. We want better cars ( I owned 6 vehicles in 2010), bigger houses (owned 3 houses at one time), more toys (motorcycle, over 150 firearms in my collection, 4-wheeler, boats), fancier clothes – In early 2011 I gave over $40,000.00 in clothes away between friends and charities. I was completely fucking pathetic.
Endless advertising that promotes a better life. Not only did I become the advertiser. I became the “advertised” at the same time.
Media has changed the way people in the world think. It’s not just here in the US. I’ve traveled all over. Met thousands of people with similar stories. This shit is like a plague. A disease that cannot be cured without damn near experiencing a miracle.
I use to wake up every morning with one goal in mind – To make more money than I did yesterday. When you’re banging out $XXX,XXX.XX a day, that shit takes over your life. Quick.
That was in the beginning. I sometimes reflect and would like to say – I wish I knew then what I know now. Then again, I wouldn’t be fucking killing it like I am today if it were any different. If seeking riches actually led to happiness, this would all be fine. The fact is – it don’t. Years of research and horror stories tell us that focusing on acquiring materialistic things eventually leads us to become even more unhappy as life goes along.
We will come back to that last sentence. It’s really fucking important.
Money Can Fuck You Up
How many times have you heard – “Money doesn’t buy happiness?” Seriously, if they could wipe that statement from the face of the earth we would all be better off. Why? It’s simple.
It doesn’t matter what you, I or anyone else tells people. At the end of the day, people will make their own decisions. With that said, how many people ACTUALLY believe that statement. If you said I do and you TRULY do, trust when I say – I HIGHLY RESPECT YOU. That’s because I know you’ve been through “some really bad shit.” Those of you who said “I Do” but actually don’t – start off by being truly honest with yourself and second if you can’t do that – please go jump off a bridge. You’re life is dead anyway. You just don’t fucking realize it yet.
To be completely open and honest here, we all think about money. More than once a day. More than twice a day. For most people – it’s multiple times a day. You could be thinking about how to make money, how to save money, how to make MORE money, or even how to avoid losing your money. I get that. There are a ton of people across the globe under extreme stress and pressure to pay bills, feed their families and make ends meet. A certain level of thought and focus towards money is completely necessary to live. It’s the part when you start centering and focusing your life on accumulating money that becomes a mistake.
I’ve got a creepy scenario for you. Let’s play the – “If I had this ….much money game” real quick. Have you ever told yourself that if you had a million dollars, 5 million dollars, 10 million dollars that it would be enough for the rest of your life? Your bills would be paid off. Kids college would be paid for. You could help your family out. Everything would be alright?
Ahh, that’s quite a nice thought but simply untrue. My own desire for wealth couldn’t be stopped. It couldn’t even be slowed down. Once I hit a figure mark, that only added kerosene to the fire. Each and every fucking day, I wanted more. More, more more.
The problem was that I had to constantly adjust my life to whatever amount of money I had gotten to. See what I mean about prison? I couldn’t fucking get out.
Now, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. I’ve faced addictions (this being one of them) but also to alcohol and drugs. There’s something I’ve realized over the years though that is REALLY fucked up. A money addiction is actually accepted by society. Yes, it absolutely is. Do you see people accepting alcohol and drug addictions? How fucked up is that?
Materialistic Addictions And Other Addictions
Another fucking addiction I’ve had to deal with – video games. Halo 2 claimed about 2 years of my life. EVERY night. During the day though, it was the 4-wheeler, the motorcycle, the guns, the big jacked Hummer in the mud or one of my two Dodge Challengers that I would take joyrides in. Fucking hours at a time. To different states even, for no reason really. Because I could I guess.
You don’t burn a lot of calories eating out all the time while you’re driving around. You gain weight quick eating pizzas and burgers every night while on a 10 hour xbox stint.
I distinctly remember walking out of my house to one of my rides and being out of breath when I sat in the drivers seat. Really pathetic shit I tell you.
Materialism is like a disease. It won’t just make you miserable and unhappy. It will literally make you sick too. I’ve got the depression meds to prove it. Along with the therapy and psychologist trips as well. (Fuck, those cost alot of money too ha).
While going through this toy phase of mine, I remember being really tired all the time. Fatigued from just mowing the lawn. Hell, I would be out of breath walking 3 blocks to the post office. When you have a shitload of toys, they take up a lot of your time. Time passes by and you don’t even know it. You also tend to shut the world out too. You stop being social. Shit, I became a hermit, literally.
Depression will creep up on you quick. All that mental anxiety and stress to keep going, keep pushing everyday eventually wears your ass out. Not to mention your heart, lungs and other organs.
The problem I experienced can quickly be summed up like this:
The more money I made, the more I wanted to make. The more I wanted to make, the more I worked to make it. The more toys I bought, the more time it took to play with them. Eventually this circle-jerk wore me down emotionally and physically to the point of anxiety, depression, high cholesterol, being a fat-ass, and just completely out of control snorting cocaine and swallowing pills.
What I know now is this – my journey to achieve retarded amounts of money was because of neediness. I’m strong enough now to admit it but that took about a year of denial to fully comprehend and learn to deal with. For some reason, during this period I felt that I was “never good enough” so I had to make more. I had to own more. Not only in my own mind, but also implant that shit into the thoughts of people around me as well. Fucking pathetic.
The #1 Reason I Became Obsessed With Money
If you’re still reading and haven’t been disgusted to the point of closing out this blog post, I almost have to commend you. However, it’s not over yet. You make it through this next part and you’re a real fucking trooper.
Despite all that shit above…
The biggest reason I became obsessed with money was that “I SIMPLY DIDN’T LOVE MYSELF.” Might sound weak right? Only if you’re not strong enough to admit it to yourself.
Having the feeling of low self-worth or no worth at all is fucking devastating. I thought the more money I made, the better I would feel. Afterall, money pays for everything right? Wrong.
At this time I was feeling worthless (felt worthless or WAS worthless, form you’re own opinion), I thought that by making a shitload of money, I was conquering the world. I thought if I became rich, I would be remarkable basically. When I hit certain money amounts, I would feel short periods of this. I would actually feel good. At least, that’s what I thought. The real problem was that I had linked myself to better feelings with materialistic things. If you’re not careful, this can literally happen without you realizing it. Some people never recover from this and end up spending their lives in a constant state of neediness. Typically this ends in mental and physical exhaustion. I’ve actually lost 2 Online Entrepreneurs that I knew personally to suicide because of this.
The Turning Point
Now obviously, the shit began to hit the fan. I ran off anyone that ever loved me. All of the fucking leeches in my life quit trying to suck me off because I simply wasn’t available to the outside world anymore and I had become a pretty ugly fucking beast.
The first thing I noticed after hitting rock bottom with those IV’s stuck in my fucking arms at the hospital and the proceeding therapy and depression medication was that I actually never thanked anyone who had helped me make that money.
What a real selfish son of a bitch.
Making all that money wasn’t just me. I had help of course. People, partners, affiliates, advertisers and others that help me reach every stage and achievement. I’m telling you right now, the VERY day I started thanking people for helping me become successful, was like a weight had been lifted. Listen when I say this – Give Gratitude. Give it daily. Think about all the good stuff in your world that’s happening. It’s damn near impossible to be depressed when you’re grateful. Dark moods lift fast with enlightening thoughts. I promise you.
Back On Top Like A Champion
The last couple of years has been like a whirlwind of great things. Let’s see here:
- We created the IMGrind Blog and Forums
- We created our own Live Event Seminar Business
- We created our own eCommerce branch of selling live event DVD’s
- We wrote the Facebook Ads Guide, Mobi Manifesto, Lead Generation Guidebook
- We created Revived Media
- We created iMobiTrax
- We created MobGrind
That’s only the shit I feel like listing. We’ve had countless other products and awesome affiliate campaigns over the last two years. Those are spread around the blogs and forum so check them out.
I attribute that part to helping other people. If it’s one thing I know in this business it’s this – The more people you help, the more successful you will be. Why do you think so many hermit affiliates sit behind computers all alone and are always giving up? Why are we consistently successful in everything we put our minds to?
It’s because we help others and that Karma comes back 10-fold. Most people want something for nothing. Lazy fucking creatures I tell you. I know and understand this so the more I surgically and methodically break that down and apply ourselves to solving problems and providing solutions – the more successful we become.
I now look at life through a different set of glasses. A pair that doesn’t have cocaine dust or pill powder clouding them. (That shit is hard to see through). It really isn’t about what happens in your life that make you happy or sad long term, it’s how you react to what happens. When you’re all fucked up on altering substances, it’s a little hard to control those reactions or think clearly. By controlling what and how you think, you can DRAMATICALLY increase your mood and attitude.
No matter what anyone tells you. Even addicts. I speak from experience here. You are always in control of what you allow your mind to focus on. If you piss and moan about the negative shit in your life (and we all have some) then you’re going to feel like shit and most likely not get a whole lot of productivity done. Condition your mind to always look for the good in ANY situation and you will always feel AT LEAST a little bit better.
Dont get stuck. Take action. This is tough. I see it everyday. On our blogs, on my social networks and even in our private forums, at Revived Media and iMobiTrax. Remember when I said, no matter what I tell people at the end of the day they are still going to make their own decisions? I can sit here and preach TAKE ACTION every fucking day but 99% still won’t do it. That really blows, but then again let’s face it – A lot of us would be out of business if people actually did take action.
Whenever you feel like you are not making progress, no matter what it is, you are not in control of your life and the darkside will soon creep up on you. The solution is so simple – TAKE ACTION. As people though, we tend to over-think and over-analyze. That’s why I believe there are so many fucking lazy assholes in the world. I used to be one of them. To be told to take action just seems too fucking easy and we’ve been taught – if it seems to good to be true, it probably is. Unfortunately, in this business it really is that easy. People just won’t fucking do it.
Taking action has an awesome effect on you. Taking action often improves almost any situation for you and progress makes you feel amazing. Also, when you take action, you gain control and like I said before, when you have that feeling that you are in control of your life, it’s very uplifting.
Or you can take the alternative route which is what most people do – Helplessness – and that shit is fucking depressing.
So yes, there’s more ugliness to this story but I think you get the gist of it right?
Honestly, it won’t matter for about 99% of the people who read this post. You know why? It’s because the lure of cash (motherfucking money) will have a stronger temptation over you than what you’ve just read. Unfortunately, this is pretty fucking sad, but oh so true. Afterall, we are just people.
There’s nothing wrong with chasing the money, just don’t become a slave to it. Don’t worship that shit. It’s not a religion.
True wealth is happiness. Period. I’m so grateful I’ve learned that now. Even though I had to go through some personal hell to realize it. It was worth it. I’m better than ever emotionally, physically and across all of our businesses. Every business Ryan and I create becomes successful very quickly and I don’t think they would have with out experiencing my evil money obsession.